“I’m Fine” – a poem

A friend asked my oldest daughter to write a poem expressing how she felt our former pastor and church treated her and my other children as our family was experiencing the most intense private and public pain we had endured.  Although the entire church wasn’t privy to the details, they could see the devastation –…

come and talk with me, please

It’s amazing the way God uses time to bring healing.  It’s now coming upon a year to the day when the kids were taken away from me and no contact was ordered by the court.  A year since I was falsely accused of parental alienation syndrome by my husband and the GAL. This morning, my…

time

Recovering from our separation takes time.  The kids have had different highs and lows the past four months, since we’ve been together again. They’ve had anger, sadness, fear, anxiety, and insecurity like nothing they’ve had before. We do the best we can to get through those times by talking about how they are feeling.  Often, the way…

don’t give up

Over the months that my kids were writing the letters I have put on this blog, they were seeing their dad with opened eyes.  I had provided a buffer between them and him throughout their lives in a way that none of us realized, until I couldn’t be there all the time.  You can see it in their…

I need you to believe me

Dear Ms. T, I am depressed.  I am being constantly torn from my mom, my best friend.  Not only that, I was being forced to stay with my abusive father, who has repeatedly betrayed my confidence and trust.  He has yelled at me, calling me a liar and poison when I have done nothing wrong. …

My Feelings

Writing has been a way for my kids to express how they feel, when they couldn’t say it.  Seeing their feelings in words made them real.  This is especially important when the person who is hurting you makes you feel like you are overreacting, or that the hurtful thing they just did to you, or said to you, didn’t even…

That is all I have to say.

It would be really nice if I could have a different guardian, one who actually is on my side, understands, and has actually seen us.  Ms. T is not that kind of guardian.  She does not know us, but from the words of our father she believes we are unforgivable children.  Obviously, our father is…

I should be more important than I feel I am

My name is “E”, and I am 18 years old. I am not satisfied with the performance of my Guardian ad Litem, Ms. T.  She was appointed by court to be my voice in all legal matters concerning me at this time.  In the two months that she has been my GAL, I have not…

hope

On this site, the kids’ writing and art has come from their deep feelings of betrayal and hurt, loss and fear.  At times they have felt like their life was a nightmare.  They were desperate and wanted so badly to escape. Although it may not be clear in every letter and drawing, their hope has come from faith in…

grief

My heart hurts when I look at this drawing. About 3 1/2 months into our court-ordered separation and no contact, my children’s grief at being apart from me was overwhelming. Late one night, one of my daughters went into the bathroom of the home where she stayed.  Her pain and distress were so terrible that she sobbed uncontrollably for…

Dear GAL..

Mrs. T., My name is “F”, I’m 12 years old.  I just want my mommy to stay with us 24/7 and for us to be able to chose to see our Dad.  Our Dad has been cruel, and manipulative, and I don’t wish him ill will, I just want him to be gone.  And I…

A letter to my sister

Because of false accusations of parental alienation syndrome, my kids and I were forced apart and allowed no contact.  By God’s grace, they were able to be together during that time – but their sadness was tremendous.  They did much to encourage each other  – including notes and letters and pictures to one another.  I found this sweet…